Into the mind of a deranged youth...

Fri, 12 Oct 2007 23:36:46 GMT

Recent events have inspired me to return to this lj. I have another, purely for my sims 2 stories. I wanted to keep that pretty clean in terms of content, so rather than post there about personal events and rants, I figured, why not jump back on this train. Of course, now I'm going to have OCD about how my journal looks, but that takes time.

BTW, my friends list is prolly a bit defunct about now. So, if you still exist and this post appears in your friends page, and you're still alive, I'd appreciate a comment.

Thank ya very much

disappearing parties

Sat, 18 Feb 2006 18:29:55 GMT

I am currently sitting in my room doing nothing. Last night, a friend of mine was going to have a birthday party for himself, but I didn't go. A friend of mine called us (my friends Carmen, Laura and I) and told us that alcohol could be seen, but found no one around. They ended up going back to their dorms. Bout half hour later, Carmen went herself to check it out. She could smell alcohol, but was also unable to find any signs of life. Hmmm............where the fuck did everybody go?

Ended up watching 40 year old virgin in Laura's room, but then we all fell asleep. So, at 5am, Carmen and I came back to my room, and went to sleep. Doesn't this sound like a really festive evening? I'm hoping that tonight's a bit better, but since its the long weekend, and everyone left, I don't have high expectations. We'll see...

its been a long ass time

Tue, 14 Feb 2006 04:13:30 GMT

I haven't been here in months, as you can tell. i really only got into doing lj because of a friend. I really shouldn't be doing anything but reading for psych class, but i am a total procrastinator. i wanna try to get back into this, so we'll see what happens in the next week. i'll get into more details as time goes on, but for now, i'll bid you adieu, as i need to read some more before going to bed. but, i might get a panini first, since i'm craving one.

p.s. i'll work on the pic thing. i've just been really into facebook, which can be addicting.

scary scary, fucked up dream

Wed, 06 Apr 2005 05:14:40 GMT

I just had the scariest dream ive ever had.

I fell asleep around 5:30 today, cuz i was laying down on the couch, when i should have been working. anyway, the dream starts with my father dropping me off at some big ass mall to meet my older sister Jessica. I go into the store and wait where we're supposed to meet. When she doesnt show, I decide to go back to the car, but I dont really remember where it was parked, but I do find it relatively quickly. I see my father and sister getting in and getting ready to drive away, so i run to the car screaming, "Dad! Dad!" I even start screaming his name, "Jose Rivera! Jose Rivera!" He starts to drive away, but I see that Ariel's laughing, so I know they see me. Dad's just playing a joke a me. I get in and we drive away.
Then, we're on some highway ive never seen before, and its really high, but i see some construction tower or sumthing that I recognize, so i say, "now, i know where we are." Meanwhile, dad is fucking with Ariel. I think he keeps tickling her or sumthing, but im not sure. I am pretty sure that he was drunk thou, at least it felt like that. We go up this huge ramp, and my dad's driving pretty fast, so we go up and off the ramp into the air. The problem is that you're aupposed to turn left and we were going straight, so we could see that we were gonna fall off the ramp. For some reason, I saw a hand reach out of the window to try to get the ramp. I immediately close my eyes, but I can hear my father say, "I'm sorry guys." I ask if we are going to die, and he says yes. I didnt want to open my eyes and see were we were falling, but all I could think to say was, "I love you guys." Then i waiting to die, but it didnt come and I waited until all of a sudden, i woke up.

What made it scary was that it felt so real. I really thought that i was gonna die. I didnt realize it was a dream until I woke up. I thought of all the things I didnt do, the life I would never get to have, etc. What makes it worse is that I would have died at the hands of my own father. This thought really bothers me, it really really bothers me. It took me a good twenty minutes to fully calm down, and now I really dont want to go back to sleep.

spring break

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 16:29:48 GMT

Well, i just flew in from ten days in Japan and boy are my arms tired

Details soon to come.....................

once again

Thu, 24 Feb 2005 03:46:54 GMT

I spent my four day weekend completing E4 of aspects, and I never have to go upstate again. I never hated it, actually liked it. I will miss it a bit.

Other than that, there is nothing more of my life to tell. Other than that my oldest friend got into Brandeis with a full scholarship.

And........................

While at aspects.........................

I sorta kinda.........................

Developed a .......................

crush..........................

here we go yet again.

Replaces Hearts With Holes......

Wed, 16 Feb 2005 04:09:37 GMT

I'm gonna make this really quick, since I have homework to do. I didn't have a Valentine, and I never have. Hopefully, one day I will, but let's not dwell on the depressing.

However, I did get something else yesterday that I think is just as fabulous as a gift from an admirer. First off, I got a third piercing the rim of my left ear. Also..............................

I got my right eyebrow pierced.

I think it looks so cute!! I know that sounds cheesy, esp when talking about piercings, but I think it really suits me. I'm gonna try to get a pic of me with it online soon, if you wanna see it. Who knew that a quiet introvert like me would do this? Sometimes, you gotta keep people on their toes. I'm already getting looks from people on the train and bus, and I happen to like the attention.

Well, back to work I go. I hope everyone smiled at least once yesterday, as I know that the love of a father is more than enough to receive on the day that celebrates love.

(BTW, my father came with me to get the piercings. Is that not the coolest dad in the world?)

nuthin

Wed, 12 Jan 2005 14:38:05 GMT

I havent updated in almost a month, but to be perfectly honest, there really hasnt been anything new. I didnt do nething over winter break, but get sick and pass it on to my friends when i got back and got sick again, so i had to miss a day of school. I have midterms next week. Psych and Spanish arent that big, but i need to do well in Physics and math, or ill get a bad semester grade. AARRRRGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

My sister got her tongue pierced. I dont really care, but my dad doesnt kno and he might kill her when he does. THe only perk is that when he does find out, he'll have to let me get my eyebrow pierced. yay.

i like it

Wed, 15 Dec 2004 14:33:23 GMT


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And the answer is....

Wed, 15 Dec 2004 04:13:03 GMT

I GOT INTO BROWN!!!!

Brown (in psych class)

Mon, 13 Dec 2004 18:07:58 GMT

I checked my status with Brown, and I know if they took me or not. Hmmm...........
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Should I say?
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hmm..

Tue, 07 Dec 2004 04:39:33 GMT

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Life thus

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 14:12:10 GMT

Since i am a leader of my school's diversity club, i am going to miami tomorrow. The DAIS conference is there and i get to go for freee. the school is paying for everything, so all i have to do is sit back and take in the sun. I need a vacation and some sun, so im loving this. when i get back, hopefully ill have some fun and embarrasing stories to tell

Mon, 29 Nov 2004 03:11:00 GMT

I GOT A CELL PHONE!!!!! WOO HOO!!!!

moi

Sun, 14 Nov 2004 20:24:39 GMT

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crap

Thu, 11 Nov 2004 02:26:46 GMT

ive been working like a fucking dog for the last month and i hate it. all this college shit is pissing me off, and i cant take talking about it nemore. but i will for a bit longer...

i had an interview with an alumni from Brwon yesterday. i think it went very well. he was a classics major, like i may be, and we had the same favorite movie, the shawshank redemption. i hope he gives me a good rec, and then ill get in so that i wont have to apply to 8 more colleges. ugh!

im a little sick of the same shit. i wanna leave and get the fuck out and stay away for as long as humanly possible. i love my fam and friends, but i desperately need a change of scenery. i just need a change.

major crap

Sat, 23 Oct 2004 03:08:13 GMT

the last week has been one big haze to me. all this college shit has just squished me into a little blob. i have so much work to do, its disgusting. one of my friends has the same amount of ap's, but she has 21 frees and i only have 9. i have no idea how i even function. i get four hours of sleep a nite, if im lucky. so then i crash friday and saturday and then i do all my work on sunday, which keeps me up late, and the cycle begins again. my grades are suffering, im prolly gonna get all B's except for my two arts, since i always do well in art. here is my list of classes:

AP Psychology (6)
AP Spanish Language (6)
AP Calculus AB (6)
Honors Physics (6)
Modern American Drama (6)
Metalsmithing (4)
Digital Photography (3)
Diversity Leader Seminar (3)

Clubs:
Peerleadership (2)
Blue Key Club (2)
MECA (1)

There are 54 periods every six-day cycle, and I have 45 of them full. What the fuck was i thinking when i made this schedule? I want every class, but i just wish i had more free time during the day. If i get into Brown, it would just relieve so much stress and pressure, and maybe i could relax for a second.

It's no surprise, but once again, this year i have no social life. it's not like i have time for one, but i need to go with friends and not talk about tests and college even if only for two seconds. I cannot wait until college. I swear i'll be partying every weekend. dont worry, i dont drink or do drugs, so i'll just be dancing as much as possible. november 1st is coming up, so i have to get my essay finished and make sure my rec's get sent on time.

i am so sick of school. i see the same faces every day, and i just want to take out a gun and shoot them all. i dont really mean all of them, but most of them. the only reason i still get up in the morning to go is that i need to graduate in order to go to college. i have no problems with my close buds, but i pretty much just wanna kill everyone else. this may seem very hostile. its not that i hate them for ne reason whatsoever. it's just the fact that i've seen them almost everyday since the 7th grade. i need a new place, new faces. i will admit, i dont mind seeing my crush every day, but i trying to get over him since he has a girlfriend neway. im trying to face the fact that nothing is going to happen between us, and just move on. i will, eventually, especially since we're not going to the same college. thinking about not having a boyfriend leads to thinking about prom and having a date, but i have enough on my mind to think about right now, so ill cross that bridge when i get to it.

ugh......

ugh...

Wed, 13 Oct 2004 03:20:20 GMT

its been so long since ive updated, but these days, i honestly dont have the energy or time to go thru my day. ive had tons of work, since i have 3 AP classes. then they's college stuff, and clubs. every extra minute i get, i dedicate to sleep. i get about 3-4 hrs a nite. i'll try to update more specifically later in the week, but life has become such a drag.

Wed, 29 Sep 2004 01:17:23 GMT

I'M GONNA APPLY EARLY DECISION TO BROWN! PRAY I GET IN!!!!!!

and the #1 college choice is...?

Thu, 23 Sep 2004 21:26:02 GMT

College has picked up full speed this week, since college reps are coming by my school for mini info sessions. I went to my first one today for Brown. I'm 95% sure that imma apply early. i never thought that id be the type of person to do that since i never had a college that i liked so much, but lo and behold, heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeere's Brown!

Just to clear my head, imm list the reasons why i like it:

1) About 5,600 undergraduates, so its not small, but not too big

2) It's about 3 hours away from home, so far enough im independent, but close enough that i can still get home fairly quickly.

3) It's in a city, but Providence is not as huge as NYC, so it has aspects of a huge city, but is a bit smaller.

4) It's an Ivy, so it has great company and has high standards.

5) It has independent majors, though i doubt ill need it, but i like the possiblity there neways.

6) There is no core-curriculum. they have division requirements, but there are many options per requirement.

7) The campus is great. its in the middle of the city, so good all around.

8) I can take classes at the Rhode Island School of Design for my artistic interests.

9) IT'S THE ONLY COLLEGE BESDIES UCLA THAT HAS AN EGYPTOLOGY DEPARTMENT!!!! YES!!!!!!!

i think that's everything. i might be missing some other stuff. i could add stuff like clubs and shit, but every college has that, so that isnt a specific reason to put down. i didnt know i'd have 9. i guess that pretty much sums that up. Brown, here i come.

help

Sun, 19 Sep 2004 22:19:14 GMT

i want to know how to say "vampire" in greek and in egyptian. ancient greek and ancient egyptian is kewl too. if u happen to speak ne of these languages, please help me. thank you very much.

hair and dispair

Sat, 18 Sep 2004 03:34:09 GMT

i got my hair done today, but with the damn humidity, it got a bit poofy. my dad and my sister still arent talking which is making the whole house tense. my sister refuses to leave the room, which mean she's barely eaten nething since wednesday. since she's as stubborn as my father, this feud could last quite a long time. guess who just might get caught in the middle? urs truly. this weekend looks like itll be loads of fun. let the fighting begin.

been a while...

Fri, 17 Sep 2004 03:51:48 GMT

ive been kinda busy since school started, so i havent had much time to update, but its not like neone actually reads this neway. last tuesday i found out who my peerleadership partner was. honestly, it wasnt my first choice, but im not complaining. it couldve turned out much worst. out of the 11 guys, there were 3 i definitely did not want, so im happy i didnt get them. we went upstate on a cheese bus, so at the end of the day, my butt hurt, but no big deal.

last thursday was my first day of school. more importantly, my first day of being a senior. i dont feel like a senior, but then again, compared to the seniors when i was a freshman, i dont look like one either. im pretty okay with my schedule. its not the ideal one, but i can deal. ive only had three days of classes and im already sick of school. its not so much the classes, but more the faces i have to see every day. i realized that i dont have many close friends at school. it doesnt upset me as much as i thought it would, but just gives me more reason to want to go to college. ive had to some of these ppl everyday since the 7th grade. there are some that i wish i could tear limb fromj limb and live in the middle of the desert to be eaten by the vultures. however, since i dont want to go to jail, i cant do this. im not gonna use ne names, since i kno some kids in my grade have lj's. i honestly dont care what they think neway, since i only have about 9 and half months left with them.

on tuesday and wednesday, i went on the freshman orientation trip. its was okay. my kids are pretty nice and they seemed happy with Izak and I. we also won a pizza party during our first meeting, so that should help the group confidence. the only crappy part was that i really didnt have many friends to hang with. the two close ones that were on the trip kinda had other ppl to hang with, so i spent alotta time on my own, but it doesnt matter neway, since i dont mind being alone. it gives me time to think.

Ariel, my little sister, is acting bitchy again, but then again, whem isnt she? i think she had a permanent case of PMS. we've alreay fought this summer, but it'll happen again, and this time, instead of slapping her, imma hit her with my fists. maybe this time, she'll get the message and stop acting like an asshole.

my social is still non-existent, but thats old news. with all the shit imma have to do this year cuz of classes, dance, applications, and volunteering, i doubt id have time for one neway. when i go to college and live minutes from my classes, then ill have time to do whatever i fucking want to. i havent been to a real party since may, which is waaaay too long. this is another reason im looking forward to college. i think imma apply early to brown. its the only university besides UCLA in the US that has and egyptology department, plus it has idependent majors, is in the same city as the rhode island school of design, and its a good distance from home. the only prob is the forms are due november first. the plus side, is that if i get in, ill be done with college shit by winter break. the question becomes, am i 100% sure that brown is what i want?

school approaches...

Tue, 07 Sep 2004 01:35:23 GMT

last thursday, i got my nails done for school. they are light blue on the tip with black, white, and silver designs on it. i only paid $15, which is extremely cheap when its usually between $25-$35 to get designs on all 10 nails.

ive also gone to church stuff, like youth group night, and some concert about jesus and god in queens. its was nice, but i cant say that i fully believe it yet. unless changes are made concerning homosexuels, abortion, and the male dominance.

i start school on thursday and yet ive only finished two outta the 4 books i gotta read. plus, i havent done the math work thats due the first day in class. ill get it done, but i wont have fun doing it.

lolita was wierd. how many 12 yr old girls have had sex before the pedifile came along? sheesh. it was good thou.

birthday

Wed, 01 Sep 2004 03:46:03 GMT

i am now 17 and can go see R-rated movie by myself, even thou i never go the movies be myself neways. i have 8 more days i freedom until school and tons of reading to do. ill get it dont but i wont have fun doing it. so far i got $40 from sam, $20 from annette, $25 from mom, and $50 from my dad's girlfriend, which means $135. Im expecting $20-$40 from my grandma. 60 goes to preordering the sims 2, 25 goes to nails, i already spent 17 on pizza and coke for the family and 5 on some face wash. hopefully i have enough to get my back pack and maybe a nice shirt or two.

ONE MORE YEAR UNTIL I CAN GET MY EYEBROW PIERCED AND GET MY TATOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!